"Stomach dropped with the thought of leaving.
Mind went blank while searching for a solution.
Knowing it has yet to happen, but still saving every breath for a moment spent with you.
Wanting to be tucked safely in your arms instead of left out in the open to figure it all out."
It happened
You have to deal with it
Live through it
Make the best of the lesson you were given to learn
Taking the situation with
the things you saw,
the fear you felt,
the careless wish to never of awaken
Full of hope, overlapping the doubt
Hold on, pull yourself up, stay awake
& never let go what you just got back.
Take what you saw, use it to your advantage.
Take the feelings of fear & anger
& convert it into the energy you lost long ago.
~C*J~
I hate you for your choices
I hate you for your reasons
I hate you for the distance
I hate you for the love you swore you had, but lied & drove me under
I hate you for letting me fall
I hate you because you walk past with a simple glance
I hate you because I'm right here,
But you still claim another
~C*J~
Your still there
Questions cloud your eyes
Face lingering my way with an expression that burns the candle by your side
Lighting through your lungs
Thunder follows your voice
Fearless thoughts you wish you could say.
Play with your tounge, telling it exactly what to say
As you sit silently, as each letter of each word lingers around you like a snake
waiting to devour his pray
A little voice whispers "Are you happy now?" as I walk away,
Slipping from grace, existance erased.
~C*J~
Laying in bed
My head on your chest
Bodys intwind together
The silence lingers as you pull me closer
Cold feet, warm sheets
The thrill of love, protection as if nothing could hurt me
with the thought that you'd save me
~C*J~
I'm slipping
Falling
I'm holding myself up with so little strength
but you still walk away
Why won't you take the time & effort that's desperately
needed to make this work?
Other then looking away & denying that this has to
change before I fall & your left
without a say.
~C*J~
Lips are moving,
But I hear nothing
Words are being repeated,
But they've lost meaning
You're taking steps,
Trust me I'm counting
You're pushing me away,
There'll come a day where I'm out of reach
& it's not a simple pull back, nor a chance of
a change of mind.
~C*J~
You know how it starts & ends.
No point in going over it again.
Still the urge, well excuse me,
The thought, that maybe it'll be better again.
but the feelings replaced with how it was then && you decide,
But still the urge still circling your vains,
only to be back again.
~C*J~
"Stomach dropped with the thought of leaving.
Mind went blank while searching for a solution.
Knowing it has yet to happen, but still saving every breath for a moment spent with you.
Wanting to be tucked safely in your arms instead of left out in the open to figure it all out."
It happened
You have to deal with it
Live through it
Make the best of the lesson you were given to learn
Taking the situation with
the things you saw,
the fear you felt,
the careless wish to never of awaken
Full of hope, overlapping the doubt
Hold on, pull yourself up, stay awake
& never let go what you just got back.
Take what you saw, use it to your advantage.
Take the feelings of fear & anger
& convert it into the energy you lost long ago.
~C*J~
I hate you for your choices
I hate you for your reasons
I hate you for the distance
I hate you for the love you swore you had, but lied & drove me under
I hate you for letting me fall
I hate you because you walk past with a simple glance
I hate you because I'm right here,
But you still claim another
~C*J~
Your still there
Questions cloud your eyes
Face lingering my way with an expression that burns the candle by your side
Lighting through your lungs
Thunder follows your voice
Fearless thoughts you wish you could say.
Play with your tounge, telling it exactly what to say
As you sit silently, as each letter of each word lingers around you like a snake
waiting to devour his pray
A little voice whispers "Are you happy now?" as I walk away,
Slipping from grace, existance erased.
~C*J~
Laying in bed
My head on your chest
Bodys intwind together
The silence lingers as you pull me closer
Cold feet, warm sheets
The thrill of love, protection as if nothing could hurt me
with the thought that you'd save me
~C*J~
I'm slipping
Falling
I'm holding myself up with so little strength
but you still walk away
Why won't you take the time & effort that's desperately
needed to make this work?
Other then looking away & denying that this has to
change before I fall & your left
without a say.
~C*J~
Lips are moving,
But I hear nothing
Words are being repeated,
But they've lost meaning
You're taking steps,
Trust me I'm counting
You're pushing me away,
There'll come a day where I'm out of reach
& it's not a simple pull back, nor a chance of
a change of mind.
~C*J~
Kissing to remember
All the times I\'ve said I love you
And had it said in return.
Holding you close,
Feeling your warmth,
Your lips,
Yor tongue...
Kissing to forget
All the problems in the world,
Like the distance between us
When you aren\'t here.
Burying my head in your neck,
Feeling your gentle hands,
Your soft skin...
Kissing just to live
To smile, to feel
Wrapped up in you,
Surrounded, enclosed.
Hearing your heart,
Feeling you breathe,
Existing with you...
you see no mark upon my skin
you see no tear in my eye
you see no sign of pain
therefor I must not be in pain
I must not cry myself
to sleep at night
or wake up screaming
because of haunted dreams
I must not pull the blade
across my skin
and hope that one day
it drives in deeper
I must not fear the darkness
or shudder at the thought of silence
I must not hide myself from
life and prying eyes that
judge your worth as a person
upon the shine of your smile
you hear no gasp escape my mouth
you hear no horror tale from my past
you hear no words of pain
therefor I must not be in pain
I must not scream so loud it's silent
o
The Feelings That Linger by WordOfChen, literature
Literature
The Feelings That Linger
The Feelings That Linger:
The sound of your voice still lingers here
Even though I know you're gone...
And my nights have turned to sleepless days;
They grow worse with every dawn...
You've probably heard this story though
At least a thousand times or more.
But the thing I remember best about her
Is the sound of that closing door...
It was like the end to everything;
A cloud inside my head.
When I came awake on that final night;
I reached for her in bed-
But an empty space was all I got;
There was no one to wipe these tears.
I could scream and cry for many hours;
But it wouldn't chase my fears.
I tried so hard to tell myself
Not really much to say. I'm 17. Like every other teenager, I think life is a living hell, that I'm in love. But hey thats the way its suppose to be(: Trying to enjoy my young life to the best of my Ability. Hating school, loving friends. Still trying to figure out who I am & what I want to be. Boys seem to be always on my mind, along with haters but thats high school. It's a given if you ever fully get away from drama. I'm addicted to Music. It's my life, soul & escape. I've learned to accept my mistakes & move on. I'm learning to never regret what I've done but to regret the things I didn't do when I had the chance.
Favourite Movies
so many
Favourite Bands / Musical Artists
My Darkest days, Skillet, Breaking Benjamin, Green day, Yellowcard, Nickelback & so muchhhhh more.